Being an author isn't all sunshine and rainbows. Behind the magic is a ton of clogged crap in your brain. Of course, all of us authors want to release the crap that reaides in there, but sometimes you can't release these stories due to how bad or uninteresting they are. That's what I believe at least, and I'm very critical of my work. The characters in the image above are Miracle and Victor.
They were featured in my book The Loner & The Goth. After publishing that book a few years ago, Miracle and Victor were going to have a story of their own, which was going to be a prequel to The Loner & The Goth. But the only problem was that it would've been too much like my book She's Divine: with a couple trying to maintain love while living in two separate dimensions. The only difference between Miracle & Victor's story and She's Divine is that it would've had some 70s soul & horror in it due to the character Venus, who is also featured in The Loner & The Goth. There was really no way I could change their origin story. And one thing about me is that I don't like repeating the same thing and expecting different results.
Once I put something out there for the world to see, I live with the results. If it's good, then great! Now I must try to find a way to capitalize off that and get better. If it's horrible, then great! Now I must see where I went wrong and how I need to change my style to become the best author I can be. I love to change things up. So, in my case, I don’t think Miracle and Victor’s story would’ve been bad, but it would’ve sounded like my old work. And that’s why I had to trash it. On top of that there are so many stories that are falling into this magic genre that are horrible, and with being an indie author, your work can get lost in the wave of bad books due to the number of indie books being published every day. Being a creator in an oversaturated market is such a pain in the ass, but I'll never stop creating.
There’s pros and cons to indie publishing and traditional publishing; but I have to take a risk to see what traditional publishing is like for me. I work too hard for my work to not be seen by major publishing houses and I've been publishing for nine years in the independent lane. It's time for me to go Air Jordan and slam dunk on this entire industry! My job is not finished. When it comes to my writing, many of you won’t see any new stories until my announcement comes that I’m signed with an agent. In the meantime, I’ll be creating my film company while releasing short films and documentaries. As always, I appreciate everyone for their support over the years. I hope you all stick with me as I take this new ride.
They were featured in my book The Loner & The Goth. After publishing that book a few years ago, Miracle and Victor were going to have a story of their own, which was going to be a prequel to The Loner & The Goth. But the only problem was that it would've been too much like my book She's Divine: with a couple trying to maintain love while living in two separate dimensions. The only difference between Miracle & Victor's story and She's Divine is that it would've had some 70s soul & horror in it due to the character Venus, who is also featured in The Loner & The Goth. There was really no way I could change their origin story. And one thing about me is that I don't like repeating the same thing and expecting different results.
Once I put something out there for the world to see, I live with the results. If it's good, then great! Now I must try to find a way to capitalize off that and get better. If it's horrible, then great! Now I must see where I went wrong and how I need to change my style to become the best author I can be. I love to change things up. So, in my case, I don’t think Miracle and Victor’s story would’ve been bad, but it would’ve sounded like my old work. And that’s why I had to trash it. On top of that there are so many stories that are falling into this magic genre that are horrible, and with being an indie author, your work can get lost in the wave of bad books due to the number of indie books being published every day. Being a creator in an oversaturated market is such a pain in the ass, but I'll never stop creating.
There’s pros and cons to indie publishing and traditional publishing; but I have to take a risk to see what traditional publishing is like for me. I work too hard for my work to not be seen by major publishing houses and I've been publishing for nine years in the independent lane. It's time for me to go Air Jordan and slam dunk on this entire industry! My job is not finished. When it comes to my writing, many of you won’t see any new stories until my announcement comes that I’m signed with an agent. In the meantime, I’ll be creating my film company while releasing short films and documentaries. As always, I appreciate everyone for their support over the years. I hope you all stick with me as I take this new ride.
When her soul clung to mine, I thought she was the one.
I wanted to give her everything, including the sun.
Our love struck quickly like a lightning bolt.
There was no way this feeling was coming to a halt.
Unfortunately, I was wrong, because out of the blue
She suddenly believed I was too good to be true.
I didn’t want our love to end soon.
So I gave her the moon.
After this gift, she never smiled and was never impressed.
So I made my tasks simpler and gave her a dress.
She kept all the gifts but still wouldn’t give me a smile.
I was starting to ask myself if this love was worthwhile.
In our hardest moments, I gave her all my time.
But unfortunately, that wasn’t enough to keep her as mine.
In the end, I realized that there was nothing to gain.
Out of all the love I gave, all she provided was pain.
As I tried to leave, she gave me one last kiss before flipping the switch.
I was suddenly the bad guy, so she pushed me off a cliff.
To my surprise, I fell into a black hole.
And that was the moment I lost my soul.
I wanted to give her everything, including the sun.
Our love struck quickly like a lightning bolt.
There was no way this feeling was coming to a halt.
Unfortunately, I was wrong, because out of the blue
She suddenly believed I was too good to be true.
I didn’t want our love to end soon.
So I gave her the moon.
After this gift, she never smiled and was never impressed.
So I made my tasks simpler and gave her a dress.
She kept all the gifts but still wouldn’t give me a smile.
I was starting to ask myself if this love was worthwhile.
In our hardest moments, I gave her all my time.
But unfortunately, that wasn’t enough to keep her as mine.
In the end, I realized that there was nothing to gain.
Out of all the love I gave, all she provided was pain.
As I tried to leave, she gave me one last kiss before flipping the switch.
I was suddenly the bad guy, so she pushed me off a cliff.
To my surprise, I fell into a black hole.
And that was the moment I lost my soul.
- SHE HAD LOVE TO TAKE, BUT NONE TO GIVE -
Forgive me for wanting you so bad
At first glance I wanted to call you my own
And I don't think this feeling is from years of feeling alone
It's different, it's unique, it's like a dream
In all honesty I don't know what this could mean
But our souls are pulling us together while the wind is trying to tear us apart
Dream girl don't fly away from me
You came, you saw, and you conquered my heart
So don't let a little wind tear us apart!
Can't you see me holding on for dear life just to keep your presence
I'm not a creep, I swear, I'm just addicted to your essence
I don't know how long I have left in this world
So while I'm living, I'll keep asking you to be my girl
I'm sure my heart can take whatever you have to say
Dream girl just don't fly away
At first glance I wanted to call you my own
And I don't think this feeling is from years of feeling alone
It's different, it's unique, it's like a dream
In all honesty I don't know what this could mean
But our souls are pulling us together while the wind is trying to tear us apart
Dream girl don't fly away from me
You came, you saw, and you conquered my heart
So don't let a little wind tear us apart!
Can't you see me holding on for dear life just to keep your presence
I'm not a creep, I swear, I'm just addicted to your essence
I don't know how long I have left in this world
So while I'm living, I'll keep asking you to be my girl
I'm sure my heart can take whatever you have to say
Dream girl just don't fly away
Not too long ago, in the world of Depression, there were two strangers headed to the same destination.
This destination was called The Island of Love & Affection.
They'd never seen the island before, but their minds informed them that this unknown place is where they would find peace.
They knew it would be a long journey, but it was one they were willing to take.
The woman was from the left side of the world, and the man was from the right side of the world.
According to their minds, The Island of Love & Affection was in the middle of the ferocious ocean, but the island couldn't be harmed, due to the peace it provided.
This is where the man and woman wanted to spend all of eternity.
During the man's swim to the island, his mind convinced him that he had to drown, suffer from exhaustion and starvation, and become disoriented to get past the ocean's rage.
During the woman's swim, her mind would continuously warn her about avoiding predators, fighting against the waves, and keeping her head above water to get past the ocean's rage.
The more and more the man and woman swam against the ocean's rage, the harder it was to find the island.
It took years of misery, false hope, and fantasized expectations that failed, for the man and woman to finally silence their minds and stop swimming.
On that day, instead of traveling to the destination, they decided to float in the ocean's rage. As they floated, the ocean's rage suddenly hushed and became still.
Their hearts no longer raced, their minds no longer played tricks, and they finally enjoyed the process of knowing the highs and lows of loneliness.
This self-discovery of enjoying and being content with themselves, caused the ocean to pull the two strangers together.
When they met, they realized that they were The Island of Love & Affection all along.
This destination was called The Island of Love & Affection.
They'd never seen the island before, but their minds informed them that this unknown place is where they would find peace.
They knew it would be a long journey, but it was one they were willing to take.
The woman was from the left side of the world, and the man was from the right side of the world.
According to their minds, The Island of Love & Affection was in the middle of the ferocious ocean, but the island couldn't be harmed, due to the peace it provided.
This is where the man and woman wanted to spend all of eternity.
During the man's swim to the island, his mind convinced him that he had to drown, suffer from exhaustion and starvation, and become disoriented to get past the ocean's rage.
During the woman's swim, her mind would continuously warn her about avoiding predators, fighting against the waves, and keeping her head above water to get past the ocean's rage.
The more and more the man and woman swam against the ocean's rage, the harder it was to find the island.
It took years of misery, false hope, and fantasized expectations that failed, for the man and woman to finally silence their minds and stop swimming.
On that day, instead of traveling to the destination, they decided to float in the ocean's rage. As they floated, the ocean's rage suddenly hushed and became still.
Their hearts no longer raced, their minds no longer played tricks, and they finally enjoyed the process of knowing the highs and lows of loneliness.
This self-discovery of enjoying and being content with themselves, caused the ocean to pull the two strangers together.
When they met, they realized that they were The Island of Love & Affection all along.
March 24th 2021
Lord Ease My Troublin Mind
Lord there are times when I'm up and there are times when I'm down
There are times when I want to go away to a place, where I can never be found
There are days where I want to be surrounded by an entire population
That way I am able to feel the energy of your creation
Today I just want to isolate myself in darkness
I just pray that the darkness never causes me to become heartless
Lord Ease My Troublin' Mind
Lord Ease My Troublin Mind
Lord there are times when I'm up and there are times when I'm down
There are times when I want to go away to a place, where I can never be found
There are days where I want to be surrounded by an entire population
That way I am able to feel the energy of your creation
Today I just want to isolate myself in darkness
I just pray that the darkness never causes me to become heartless
Lord Ease My Troublin' Mind
To: Leonard H Williams Sr.
The first thing I want to say is, "Thank you for being you."
You were an incredible role model, a heroic man, and the perfect Grandpop.
God, thank you for allowing this man to be in my life.
My Pop-Pop, the man who called me Lenny-Bruce, the man who always told me he was proud of me, the man who told me to follow my dreams, and the man who always told me he loved me every chance he got, has officially transitioned.
It was hard for me accept that the man with the booming voice, warm hugs, and intelligent humor, had ascended for good.
I cried for an entire day, and even cried a little bit today. Shoot and I know I'll cry some more. It's just part of the grieving process. But I sure do miss you Pop-Pop: Your entire family does.
In our final conversation a few days ago you said, "I love you." and gave me one of those warm hugs of yours one last time.
That meant the world to me. Thank you for shaping & molding me into the man that I am today.
No more pain, you are officially cancer free.
Take care, Pop-Pop, you have been loved.
From: Your Grandson Leonard H Williams III a.k.a. Lenny-Bruce
Until We Meet Again
The first thing I want to say is, "Thank you for being you."
You were an incredible role model, a heroic man, and the perfect Grandpop.
God, thank you for allowing this man to be in my life.
My Pop-Pop, the man who called me Lenny-Bruce, the man who always told me he was proud of me, the man who told me to follow my dreams, and the man who always told me he loved me every chance he got, has officially transitioned.
It was hard for me accept that the man with the booming voice, warm hugs, and intelligent humor, had ascended for good.
I cried for an entire day, and even cried a little bit today. Shoot and I know I'll cry some more. It's just part of the grieving process. But I sure do miss you Pop-Pop: Your entire family does.
In our final conversation a few days ago you said, "I love you." and gave me one of those warm hugs of yours one last time.
That meant the world to me. Thank you for shaping & molding me into the man that I am today.
No more pain, you are officially cancer free.
Take care, Pop-Pop, you have been loved.
From: Your Grandson Leonard H Williams III a.k.a. Lenny-Bruce
Until We Meet Again
YOUR TWO SHINING STARS
It was a day I will never forget
In someways a day I will forever regret
I'm never ready for this thing called death
I find it eerie that one day we take our last breath.
Life is a beautiful, yet complicated thing.
In the physical we notice a lot of the complications.
But the spirit is always focused on our destinations.
My spirit is comfortable now because I know where you are.
You're with Joshua and Jeremiah, your two shining stars.
It was a day I will never forget
In someways a day I will forever regret
I'm never ready for this thing called death
I find it eerie that one day we take our last breath.
Life is a beautiful, yet complicated thing.
In the physical we notice a lot of the complications.
But the spirit is always focused on our destinations.
My spirit is comfortable now because I know where you are.
You're with Joshua and Jeremiah, your two shining stars.
I gave my love a house that wasn't a home.
I gave my love a baby that wasn't her own.
I gave my love a family, but I did it all wrong.
I gave my love a broken-heart, and it tore us apart.
How can there be a house that's not a home?
How can there be a baby that wasn't her own?
How can there be a family that's made all wrong?
And how can a broken-heart tear us apart?
A house without a family, is not a home.
A baby that's not by your love, is not her own.
A family without warmth & love, was created all wrong.
And a broken-heart, will forever tear you apart.
I gave my love a baby that wasn't her own.
I gave my love a family, but I did it all wrong.
I gave my love a broken-heart, and it tore us apart.
How can there be a house that's not a home?
How can there be a baby that wasn't her own?
How can there be a family that's made all wrong?
And how can a broken-heart tear us apart?
A house without a family, is not a home.
A baby that's not by your love, is not her own.
A family without warmth & love, was created all wrong.
And a broken-heart, will forever tear you apart.
The Power of Persistence
Morning Motivation!
Continuing to pursue your passion in spite of any difficulty or obstacles you may face is known as persistence.
In the world we live in our persistence is tested nearly twenty-four hours a day.
This test we face can persist of distractions like social media, friendships, relationships, and family issues, which can also cause doubt.
Every creature on this planet in some way, shape, or form is constantly being tested when it comes to using the power of persistence.
No matter how many times human beings or mother nature may knock down a spider's web, a spider will continue to get up every morning and weave its web.
No matter how many times a cat may knock down an ant hill, those colony of ants will continue to rebuild that hill with each second, they have left on this Earth.
It's all about overcoming that obstacle!
In my opinion, persistence is existence on steroids.
It's the art of never giving up!
One day you'll feel like you're on top of the world because you can taste that you're one step closer to achieving the "impossible."
The next day you'll feel like the world is falling apart all around you, and that it's easier to give up and collapse with it.
But in these times of doubt, I truly believe God instilled the power of persistence in all of us. It's a superpower! The only thing we have to do is use it!
And I know it's easier said than done but use this as motivation to practice and work on what you love to do every single day.
Lay one brick down at a time every single day to build your temple of success.
Use the superpower that God gave you!
"A river cuts through a rock, not because of its power, but because of its persistence." - Jim Watkins
Continuing to pursue your passion in spite of any difficulty or obstacles you may face is known as persistence.
In the world we live in our persistence is tested nearly twenty-four hours a day.
This test we face can persist of distractions like social media, friendships, relationships, and family issues, which can also cause doubt.
Every creature on this planet in some way, shape, or form is constantly being tested when it comes to using the power of persistence.
No matter how many times human beings or mother nature may knock down a spider's web, a spider will continue to get up every morning and weave its web.
No matter how many times a cat may knock down an ant hill, those colony of ants will continue to rebuild that hill with each second, they have left on this Earth.
It's all about overcoming that obstacle!
In my opinion, persistence is existence on steroids.
It's the art of never giving up!
One day you'll feel like you're on top of the world because you can taste that you're one step closer to achieving the "impossible."
The next day you'll feel like the world is falling apart all around you, and that it's easier to give up and collapse with it.
But in these times of doubt, I truly believe God instilled the power of persistence in all of us. It's a superpower! The only thing we have to do is use it!
And I know it's easier said than done but use this as motivation to practice and work on what you love to do every single day.
Lay one brick down at a time every single day to build your temple of success.
Use the superpower that God gave you!
"A river cuts through a rock, not because of its power, but because of its persistence." - Jim Watkins
Trust Me
Trust me, you already hit the game-winning shot
So don't worry about the women that try to shoot theirs
They'll miss every time
Because as you know, you're already mine.
Just trust me,
I'll love you when you're mad
I'll love you when you feel lonely
I'll love you when you're glad
I'll love you my one and only
Trust me
That's all I ask, because you're all I care for
You're the only girl my soul adores
And the only girl my heart beats for
We'll explore the dimensions forever more
Just Trust Me
So don't worry about the women that try to shoot theirs
They'll miss every time
Because as you know, you're already mine.
Just trust me,
I'll love you when you're mad
I'll love you when you feel lonely
I'll love you when you're glad
I'll love you my one and only
Trust me
That's all I ask, because you're all I care for
You're the only girl my soul adores
And the only girl my heart beats for
We'll explore the dimensions forever more
Just Trust Me
I'm Forever Yours
Let's sit here together and gaze at the sky
Hand and hand you and I
The beach is so calming and we're at peace
Time is no longer passing by
I'm forever yours, You're forever mine
I'll write it down a million times
- Lenny Williams
Hand and hand you and I
The beach is so calming and we're at peace
Time is no longer passing by
I'm forever yours, You're forever mine
I'll write it down a million times
- Lenny Williams
Say your name,
A spell it leaves my lips.
Maybe if I say it 1000 times
You’ll be here for 1000 more moments.
I swear I’ve known you for 1000 lives.
- Spoken Mind
A spell it leaves my lips.
Maybe if I say it 1000 times
You’ll be here for 1000 more moments.
I swear I’ve known you for 1000 lives.
- Spoken Mind
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Stargazing takes me to new heights every night. Watching the clouds open up to display the universe is the most magical thing we can witness as human beings. The night sky has heavily influenced my creativity in recent years. But the magic all started when I watched Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory for the first time as a kid. And I'm referring to the 1971 classic starring Gene Wilder, not the crappy remake from 2005. Now, back to what I was saying: Willy Wonka enhanced my imagination and it played a major part in molding the creator I am today. As years went on, Space Jam, and plenty of other films also played a part in how I create and craft my work.
I love it to a point where I find myself taking notes while watching a film I truly enjoy. I can't help it! When something is able to grab hold of my attention for an hour and a half or two hours, I have to know what the writers and directors did to hook me. And that's my goal as a novelist and a future screenwriter. I want to grab hold of the audience and bring them into in my world without them ever wanting to leave.
Today, I'm able to blend nature, my dreams, and my imagination to create the magic I feel in my spirit. Inspiration always comes to me and I thank God for that gift. As an adult, I still realize that my world is full of creation and pure imagination, and that's because I never allowed my inner child to die.
Within the soul of a magical creator is the child that never grew up.
Here's a poem I've written called Inner Child, Inner Magic. I hope you enjoy it.
I love it to a point where I find myself taking notes while watching a film I truly enjoy. I can't help it! When something is able to grab hold of my attention for an hour and a half or two hours, I have to know what the writers and directors did to hook me. And that's my goal as a novelist and a future screenwriter. I want to grab hold of the audience and bring them into in my world without them ever wanting to leave.
Today, I'm able to blend nature, my dreams, and my imagination to create the magic I feel in my spirit. Inspiration always comes to me and I thank God for that gift. As an adult, I still realize that my world is full of creation and pure imagination, and that's because I never allowed my inner child to die.
Within the soul of a magical creator is the child that never grew up.
Here's a poem I've written called Inner Child, Inner Magic. I hope you enjoy it.
Inner Child, Inner Magic!
The inner child in me wants to make you happy when you're down.
The inner child in me wants to play whenever you begin to mope around.
The inner child in me discovers magic wherever I go.
The inner child in me never worries, and when it comes to challenges, I never say no.
The inner child in me enjoys living in the moment and being alive.
The inner child in me loves exploring the magic in the night sky.
The inner child in me wants to jump and fly high.
My inner magic never disappeared, so my inner child will never die.
The inner child in me wants to make you happy when you're down.
The inner child in me wants to play whenever you begin to mope around.
The inner child in me discovers magic wherever I go.
The inner child in me never worries, and when it comes to challenges, I never say no.
The inner child in me enjoys living in the moment and being alive.
The inner child in me loves exploring the magic in the night sky.
The inner child in me wants to jump and fly high.
My inner magic never disappeared, so my inner child will never die.
Dedicated to my Great-Grandmother, Alice Goldsborough. Our unconditional loving matriarch. Love you forever!
*A special thanks to Sam Cooke for the inspiration.*
I wrote this emotional piece during September of 2019 in Los Angeles, California. At the time I suffered a tremendous loss. And for some reason Sam Cooke's song "Ease My Troublin' Mind" was the only song my spirit could digest. This song was actually on my 60s playlist; the same playlist that my grandmother and I would listen to whenever I ran errands with her.
Man I miss those moments.
With all the meditation, astral projection experiences, scripture readings, and knowledge I have about the afterlife, nothing really prepares me for tragedy. Initially, it's always a smack in the face. It takes me a long time to cope with losing a loved one. I guess that's just a natural part of the human experience.
Yeah that's right, it's called grief.
Just think about someone giving you love and care throughout your daily life and how consistent they are with those qualities. Now think about that same person and their actions ultimately coming to a sudden end.
Events like that throw you completely off and sometimes it makes us rearrange the way we go through our daily lives.
When my great-grandmother died in late September of 2019 it was the worst day ever. After hearing the news from my parents, all of my senses went completely numb. Having just moved to Los Angeles from Delaware didn't help either. It made me feel worse, like I was wrong and selfish for moving in the first place. And deep down I knew I wasn't selfish. I was far from it; I was just a young man chasing his dreams. However, my mind was battling with my spirit. One side tried to make me feel guilty, and the other side tried to reassure me that everything was going to be fine. That was due to my inner-self feeling completely alone and isolated.
During that isolation I wrote exactly how I felt.
Here's a little something I wrote that year, a day after Alice Goldsborough left us:
*A special thanks to Sam Cooke for the inspiration.*
I wrote this emotional piece during September of 2019 in Los Angeles, California. At the time I suffered a tremendous loss. And for some reason Sam Cooke's song "Ease My Troublin' Mind" was the only song my spirit could digest. This song was actually on my 60s playlist; the same playlist that my grandmother and I would listen to whenever I ran errands with her.
Man I miss those moments.
With all the meditation, astral projection experiences, scripture readings, and knowledge I have about the afterlife, nothing really prepares me for tragedy. Initially, it's always a smack in the face. It takes me a long time to cope with losing a loved one. I guess that's just a natural part of the human experience.
Yeah that's right, it's called grief.
Just think about someone giving you love and care throughout your daily life and how consistent they are with those qualities. Now think about that same person and their actions ultimately coming to a sudden end.
Events like that throw you completely off and sometimes it makes us rearrange the way we go through our daily lives.
When my great-grandmother died in late September of 2019 it was the worst day ever. After hearing the news from my parents, all of my senses went completely numb. Having just moved to Los Angeles from Delaware didn't help either. It made me feel worse, like I was wrong and selfish for moving in the first place. And deep down I knew I wasn't selfish. I was far from it; I was just a young man chasing his dreams. However, my mind was battling with my spirit. One side tried to make me feel guilty, and the other side tried to reassure me that everything was going to be fine. That was due to my inner-self feeling completely alone and isolated.
During that isolation I wrote exactly how I felt.
Here's a little something I wrote that year, a day after Alice Goldsborough left us:
(Lord) Ease My Troublin' Mind
Lord, I wish you would come and ease my troublin' mind.
I wish my Granny was here to tell me everything would be alright.
Lord, why would you take my Great-Granny the way you did last night.
Lord, people always told me that when I'm going through my troubles, that I should pray to you.
Because you know how to remove our troubles even when the troubles are stuck to us like glue.
Well I'm looking for you, Lord, because right now I'm so blue.
I'm 2,700 miles away from home.
In LA but I might as well be in Rome.
Right now I'm feeling all alone.
Jesus Christ!
I wish my family could come and fly here, to tell me everything is going to be alright.
Please! Somebody! Come and ease my troublin' mind . . . .
Lord, I wish you would come and ease my troublin' mind.
I wish my Granny was here to tell me everything would be alright.
Lord, why would you take my Great-Granny the way you did last night.
Lord, people always told me that when I'm going through my troubles, that I should pray to you.
Because you know how to remove our troubles even when the troubles are stuck to us like glue.
Well I'm looking for you, Lord, because right now I'm so blue.
I'm 2,700 miles away from home.
In LA but I might as well be in Rome.
Right now I'm feeling all alone.
Jesus Christ!
I wish my family could come and fly here, to tell me everything is going to be alright.
Please! Somebody! Come and ease my troublin' mind . . . .
Was it love or was it lust?
Is that wrong for me to ask . . . since I already knew deep down that you were falling for me?
I'm sorry I didn't feel the same way.
To me this was just a fun summer fling.
The entire time you saw a potential husband in me, but I didn't see the potential wife in you.
Forgive me, because multiple times we walked on the beach, held hands, and had conversations like a couple would do; so why am I acting like this wasn't a clue?
I should've told you from the beginning that this was lust and not love.
In a way, I guess I was your summer love, because you loved me, but I didn't love you.
So I'll say it one more time for you and the skies above.
FORGIVE ME MY SUMMER LOVE.
Is that wrong for me to ask . . . since I already knew deep down that you were falling for me?
I'm sorry I didn't feel the same way.
To me this was just a fun summer fling.
The entire time you saw a potential husband in me, but I didn't see the potential wife in you.
Forgive me, because multiple times we walked on the beach, held hands, and had conversations like a couple would do; so why am I acting like this wasn't a clue?
I should've told you from the beginning that this was lust and not love.
In a way, I guess I was your summer love, because you loved me, but I didn't love you.
So I'll say it one more time for you and the skies above.
FORGIVE ME MY SUMMER LOVE.
For the record, the baby in this photo isn't mine. She's precious though isn't she : ) It's my friend's baby. My friend Brandi to be exact.
Alright people . . . so at first this story was going to be an audio-book on YouTube, but that went nowhere. It wasn't really thought out and put together the right way, I needed way more preparation. Then I thought about changing the theme of this story into a comedy special or a movie script a.k.a. screenplay. And yes I said a comedy special! I've only done stand-up comedy THREE times. So um, yeah . . . . there's no way I would actually disrespect the art-form like that. It was just a thought. I'm a fantasy writer, not a comedian so after all of my so-called attempts failed I decided to shelf this story.
Originally, this story was about a young bachelor who struck his first movie deal as a screenwriter. He was now making the big bucks $$$$ as some would say. After finding out the good news, his cousin decided to throw a house party. (The funny part about this party scene is that I imagined myself playing the main character and D.C. Young Fly playing the cousin of the main character.) During the party a young woman seduces the newly successful writer and later on tricks him into thinking he got her pregnant. She was already a few weeks pregnant when they first met at the party, her belly just wasn't showing yet.
To make a long story short, this project was going to be like the movie Look Who's Talking, but the twist is that the main character would be able to hear the baby's thoughts!
My Worst Nightmare is to become lazy.
My dream is to increase my work ethic to the absolute max.
My Worst Nightmare is to become a hateful human being.
My dream is for everyone to love my aura.
My Worst Nightmare is to become an atheist.
My dream is to master astral projection and gain all-knowing knowledge about spirituality and the universe.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose faith in humanity.
My dream is for humans to stop killing animals and other humans.
My Worst Nightmare is to have a child with a woman I'm not in love with.
My dream is to have a child with a woman that I consider my wife, bestfriend, and lover.
My Worst Nightmare is to become the type of person that never looks at the bright side of things, only the negative side.
My dream is to master the art of positive thinking.
My Worst Nightmare is to no longer be a beloved brother, son, and potential husband & father; but a hated one.
My dream is to continue to be a beloved brother, son, and potential husband & father.
My Worst Nightmare is to be alone forever.
My dream is to always be surrounded by the ones I love for all eternity.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose all of my supporters.
My dream is gain a new supporters every day.
My Worst Nightmare is to never make a film again.
My dream is to make one-hundred films, and I already have a good start with one documentary on YouTube; so cheers to ninety-nine more!
My Worst Nightmare is to die without leaving a legacy.
My dream is to build my legacy each day.
My Worst Nightmare is to die with nothing to pass on to my siblings or kids.
My dream is to establish wealth that will last for generations.
My Worst Nightmare is to quit writing for good.
My dream is to continue writing in the afterlife.
My Worst Nightmare is to fall back on my Plan B and work in the Criminal Justice System again.
My dream is to never bring up that "Plan B" talk ever again and create a virtual theme park.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose hope.
My dream is to earn my magic.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose faith.
My dream is to fulfill my destiny.
My Worst Nightmare is to give up on everything in my life.
My dream is to strive for greatness in every dimension I'm in.
Alright people . . . so at first this story was going to be an audio-book on YouTube, but that went nowhere. It wasn't really thought out and put together the right way, I needed way more preparation. Then I thought about changing the theme of this story into a comedy special or a movie script a.k.a. screenplay. And yes I said a comedy special! I've only done stand-up comedy THREE times. So um, yeah . . . . there's no way I would actually disrespect the art-form like that. It was just a thought. I'm a fantasy writer, not a comedian so after all of my so-called attempts failed I decided to shelf this story.
Originally, this story was about a young bachelor who struck his first movie deal as a screenwriter. He was now making the big bucks $$$$ as some would say. After finding out the good news, his cousin decided to throw a house party. (The funny part about this party scene is that I imagined myself playing the main character and D.C. Young Fly playing the cousin of the main character.) During the party a young woman seduces the newly successful writer and later on tricks him into thinking he got her pregnant. She was already a few weeks pregnant when they first met at the party, her belly just wasn't showing yet.
To make a long story short, this project was going to be like the movie Look Who's Talking, but the twist is that the main character would be able to hear the baby's thoughts!
My Worst Nightmare is to become lazy.
My dream is to increase my work ethic to the absolute max.
My Worst Nightmare is to become a hateful human being.
My dream is for everyone to love my aura.
My Worst Nightmare is to become an atheist.
My dream is to master astral projection and gain all-knowing knowledge about spirituality and the universe.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose faith in humanity.
My dream is for humans to stop killing animals and other humans.
My Worst Nightmare is to have a child with a woman I'm not in love with.
My dream is to have a child with a woman that I consider my wife, bestfriend, and lover.
My Worst Nightmare is to become the type of person that never looks at the bright side of things, only the negative side.
My dream is to master the art of positive thinking.
My Worst Nightmare is to no longer be a beloved brother, son, and potential husband & father; but a hated one.
My dream is to continue to be a beloved brother, son, and potential husband & father.
My Worst Nightmare is to be alone forever.
My dream is to always be surrounded by the ones I love for all eternity.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose all of my supporters.
My dream is gain a new supporters every day.
My Worst Nightmare is to never make a film again.
My dream is to make one-hundred films, and I already have a good start with one documentary on YouTube; so cheers to ninety-nine more!
My Worst Nightmare is to die without leaving a legacy.
My dream is to build my legacy each day.
My Worst Nightmare is to die with nothing to pass on to my siblings or kids.
My dream is to establish wealth that will last for generations.
My Worst Nightmare is to quit writing for good.
My dream is to continue writing in the afterlife.
My Worst Nightmare is to fall back on my Plan B and work in the Criminal Justice System again.
My dream is to never bring up that "Plan B" talk ever again and create a virtual theme park.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose hope.
My dream is to earn my magic.
My Worst Nightmare is to lose faith.
My dream is to fulfill my destiny.
My Worst Nightmare is to give up on everything in my life.
My dream is to strive for greatness in every dimension I'm in.